Teen Gothic

Hey guys! I'm just going to preface this by saying I've been into the goth subculture for many years. since Freshman year in high school (2005) to be exact. I've always adored the music and the aesthetic and all that comes with it. I have my go-to favorite bands, but learning about new bands and getting into them definitely excites me as well. In senior year, I developed a thyroid disease of sorts, which has been since been treated, but thyroid issues of any degree affect memory very badly, no matter what age you are. If you know, you know.

I live in a town where we don't really have an active Goth scene. Post pandemic, my friend has spearheaded a monthly Goth night at a bar downtown. I'm beyond ecstatic about it, but I don't really know what to expect. I do worry that due to my memory issues and slight social anxiety that stems from said issues, I will struggle to remember band names, songs and lyrics (even the ones I've known for years) and look like a complete moron/poseur…Especially to the ones who like to act like because they can rattle off tons of information they're kings and queens of the local goth scene and everyone is beneath them. I honestly just want to go out, live in the moment and enjoy myself without any drama like that, even though I fully expect it.

My question is, those of you who struggle with memory issues and subsequent social anxiety deal with elitists and "pop quizzers" while out at a goth club or goth night?

Love and peace to you all. <3