Teen Gothic

Hi. I'm 17 years old and for a few years I have been strongly admiring goth fashion. When it comes to goth music, I grew up listening to Marilyn Manson. But, strangely, the same people who took me to a Marilyn Manson concert when I was 13 really don't want me to have anything to do with goth or emo (in their minds goth and emo are close to the same) anything. Naturally, this has just made my fascination stronger. I'm a pretty good kid. Only thing I've done that seriously pissed my parents off was being trans. Maybe it's because in less than a year I'll be an adult, but I kinda feel like my teenage years would be a bit wasted if I didn't at least be a bit rebellious. So, exposition aside, give me some recommendations. Goth music, goth youtubers, some places to get goth fashion besides Hot Topic. And before anyone says anything, this isn't just an act of rebellion that I'm doing just to piss off my parents. It's something I've been thinking about for a few years but I'd be lying if I said that annoying my parents isn't a bonus.