Teen Gothic

My parents are black and mostly christian and they see the goth subculture as this negative space and ill never be able to change there mind.I really dont want to throw away this whole subculture to going back to trying to fit trying to be “normal” and boring like everyone else and stop being myself. but I really want to respect my parents also and not make it seem like I hate them or think im in a bad place but no matter how hard I try to convince and educate nothing worked? my mom believes that because im black and that this subculture is the reason I dont explore my own which is not true! I am very open to. she thinks that I can’t be into due to me being black and I dont know how to feel about it,but again with my efforts trying to show my mother that all is not as dark as it seems nothing changed and she still refuses to see. I was such a happy teen when I discovered goth from the music to the art it was amazing! I was wayyy happier then I was before I discovered goth.hopefully during college I can love goth the same way I do now and that I dont grow to not like it anymore due to what has been said by my parents.