Teen Gothic

As the title says, i want more than anything to dress as trad goth, i’ve wanted to for a really long time. i’ve started shifting to the more alternative look but not exactly where i want to be. Im talking full extreme bat dragon looking goth. however after telling my partner this, he expressed that he didn’t really like the idea. Now i’m stuck between either wasting my life pretending to be someone im not, or stay with my boyfriend (whom i love very much, please don’t get me wrong i would do anything for this man.) Someone please help me or give me some advise!!!