Teen Gothic

I'm sharing it here because it seems related even though the sub is talking about the music.

There is something about self-expression that is super hard if you have social anxiety or if you grew up in a conservative home.

Even years before I got into the goth scene as a young girl I was very anxious to stand out or look strange especially from where I come from.

The thing is that I wanted to stand out but my social anxiety together with the conservative and primitive home I come from I couldn't.

I still look at goths and say "one day I can look like that without caring what everyone or my family says".

I'm also not a social person so it's much harder to find "people like you".

So how many of you had this problem and overcame it ?

Ok guys, this is not one of those posts, I'm just curious who else was always afraid to stand out. Back to high school a year ago I was so anxious to stand out even though I really wanted to, I really got into the whole goth culture towards the end of high school.

In my high school graduation picture I look completely normal lol I remember wanting to put on makeup and all that and I was just deathly afraid of standing out and that I would come out weird because there were no goths in my high school at least not as far as I know because I live in the Middle East and I regret a little that from this picture I will remember someone who was afraid express herself. There was a realy short period when I would put black eyeshadow until my mom noticed and told me it wasn't pretty so I stopped.

And I kind of want to make up for it and do what I want now but I just don't feel like I can yet. I guess my social anxiety prevents me from doing that. Also i don't want to imagine my mom's face if she sees an unusual outfit lol

As the title says, i want more than anything to dress as trad goth, i’ve wanted to for a really long time. i’ve started shifting to the more alternative look but not exactly where i want to be. Im talking full extreme bat dragon looking goth. however after telling my partner this, he expressed that he didn’t really like the idea. Now i’m stuck between either wasting my life pretending to be someone im not, or stay with my boyfriend (whom i love very much, please don’t get me wrong i would do anything for this man.) Someone please help me or give me some advise!!!

I personally love writing my own stories, I also play a little acoustic guitar and sing a little in my spare time.