Teen Gothic

hi i’m (f19) located in an area where there’s literally no goth nights/clubs/events at all and i really want to go to one. the closest one that i’ve heard about are hours away and it’s not that frequent so that’s just not an option for me. i was watching one of my favorite youtubers and she said something along the lines of “if there’s no goth nights near you, consider just making your own.” and i was like “yeah let’s do it.” i asked some of my other alternative friends (metal heads,grunge,emo,etc) if they’d be interested and they’re down too. i guess it’ll just be more of an alternative party now since everyone has their own niche. anyways enough rambling, i don’t know how to go about this. i can’t have it at my house and i’m pretty sure they can’t have it at theirs. i don’t have enough money to rent out a space and it’s too cold to have it outside at like a park or something. i’m also very shy i’ve always just kept to myself growing up although i really did want more friends, i’m nervous that people would say that they’d show up and then it’s only me and my best friend there (that’s happened to me before). the people i invited it’s like we talk every now and then but that’s really all yk ? i’m feeling quite discouraged idk what to do i’ve never done this before. i’m working on the playlist and atm it’s mostly goth songs that i like, but now i’m worried that everyone else won’t like it and then they won’t dance. i’m so confused 😭 i apologize for this being all over the place i just- yeah.

TLDR: i don’t have a place to have the party, i’m not sure if anyone would come, and i’m not sure if they’d like the music. i’m very confused and conflicted.