Teen Gothic

I live in the Middle East. Such things are not accepted the way they are accepted elsewhere. Goths are considered weird people who cut veins, most people don't know it's a music based culture.

No one knows that I love gothic music and gothic image so much (maybe they do from the skull painting i draw lol) they don't care what i listen too but they don't like the aesthetic, i wear black most of the times and my mom don't like it she always telling me to add more colors but i just like the way i look with black clotes so basically it's more like a secret hobby. I myself am also too anxious to stand out.

Everyone knows I like metal but not gothic music. Many times there are gothic characters on TV for example and sometimes my family looks at it with a bad eye so I feel a bit hypocritical because on the one hand I am part of this culture but on the other hand no one knows and kinda slam the sub-culture that i like so much.