Teen Gothic

I live in the Middle East. Such things are not accepted the way they are accepted elsewhere. Goths are considered weird people who cut veins, most people don't know it's a music based culture.

No one knows that I love gothic music and gothic image so much (maybe they do from the skull painting i draw lol) they don't care what i listen too but they don't like the aesthetic, i wear black most of the times and my mom don't like it she always telling me to add more colors but i just like the way i look with black clotes so basically it's more like a secret hobby. I myself am also too anxious to stand out.

Everyone knows I like metal but not gothic music. Many times there are gothic characters on TV for example and sometimes my family looks at it with a bad eye so I feel a bit hypocritical because on the one hand I am part of this culture but on the other hand no one knows and kinda slam the sub-culture that i like so much.

Can anyone Deaf or knowledgeable in ASL Sign Language link me a video and/or description of how to sign Goth in sign language? The personal identity/subculture/genre, not the architecture. Thank you.

I'm a 17 year old Caribbean American with strict religious parents and like goth music and the style. I'm indian and black so have straight hair and black skin and recently I just cut some micro bangs. My dad just flipped out saying I'm trying to be someone I'm not and would never fit in with the goths because of my skin color and he says I need to listen to "our" music and stop being "ashamed of who I am". It's not like I'm trying to be like someone else, it's genuinely what I enjoy and it's a part of my identity, I really don't want to stop. What should I do?