Teen Gothic

Ok guys, this is not one of those posts, I'm just curious who else was always afraid to stand out. Back to high school a year ago I was so anxious to stand out even though I really wanted to, I really got into the whole goth culture towards the end of high school.

In my high school graduation picture I look completely normal lol I remember wanting to put on makeup and all that and I was just deathly afraid of standing out and that I would come out weird because there were no goths in my high school at least not as far as I know because I live in the Middle East and I regret a little that from this picture I will remember someone who was afraid express herself. There was a realy short period when I would put black eyeshadow until my mom noticed and told me it wasn't pretty so I stopped.

And I kind of want to make up for it and do what I want now but I just don't feel like I can yet. I guess my social anxiety prevents me from doing that. Also i don't want to imagine my mom's face if she sees an unusual outfit lol