Teen Gothic

I’ve always been in love with the goth subculture from my early teens, I just never did a deep dive into it, I’ve listened to some of the music back then but had never fully explored it to its fullest potential. Now I’m in my late teens and I’ve done a full deep dive into the music, listening to sad lovers and giants, suspiria, Rosetta Stone, low life, xmal deutschland, clan of xymox, o. Children, the chameleons, little Nemo, and so so so much more not including the bands I already listened too. I know I’m listening to the right music, as well as some goth adjacent music mixed in with the run of the mill goth music. I already know how to dress goth. I know a good amount about the subculture, but I can’t help but feel like I’m a poser, I keep checking my playlist to make sure I’m listening to the correct music even though I know I am. I feel confident within this subculture but am having a hard time fully becoming flourished in it due to me feeling as if I’m a poser. How do I overcome this? I don’t feel goth enough!!

I hope I can get some insight on this <3 I'm sure many people have dealt with this feeling before.

Recently, I've been listening to goth music a lot. I like Scary Bitches and Aurat the most, I think. I love consuming content made by goths (like vlogs, art etc). I feel drawn to the aesthetics.

My issue is that I feel a little hesitant engaging with goth subculture more deeply bc I'm very very socially anxious. I want to talk to people with similar interests, but I'm afraid that I'm not knowledgeable enough on the subculture as a whole.

Going to clubs and concerts also feels very daunting. It looks very fun, but I'm like "am I allowed to be here" 😭 I like a whole host of diff genres and I know that other goth ppl do too, it's normal. But I feel like I'm specifically not allowed for some reason.

I think my question is, how should I get past these mental barriers and just enjoy the music? How do I make friends who share this interest with me without feeling like I'm an imposter?

I feel like this is an important watch for the fellow baby bats!

Yesterday I released my second album 'Wherever We End Up' including 3 new songs. This is one of them.

Everything is also available on Bandcamp, Spotify and many more sites.

https://anotherabyss.bandcamp.com/album/wherever-we-end-up