Teen Gothic

I’m making a playlist with Scandinavian artists/songs and I’m curious if you guys know of any??

It's not super common from my listening to goth music, but I'm curious if any bands added this instrument into their music?

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I struggle with pretty bad self esteem and social anxiety issues, and I dress pretty punk/grunge/goth/alt because that's what makes me feel more confident. But whenever I see other people who also have the same style and look super cool, I feel horrible and insecure about myself and I feel like I don't look good enough and will never look good enough. I see so many badass clothes online and in person and I feel so tempted to keep buying more. Each time I think "If I just buy this, I'll finally look cool and feel good about myself and people will finally be interested in me." Obviously that doesn't happen, and no matter what I wear, I still feel inferior and ugly. Has anybody else ever dealt with this?