Teen Gothic

Ive just been a listener and have never went to shows. Finally going to one and insecure that i dont know how to dance lmao. From what ive seen most of it seems like a kind of swaying dance and lots of use of the arms. I dont wanna look like an idiot and be banished lol

I struggle with pretty bad self esteem and social anxiety issues, and I dress pretty punk/grunge/goth/alt because that's what makes me feel more confident. But whenever I see other people who also have the same style and look super cool, I feel horrible and insecure about myself and I feel like I don't look good enough and will never look good enough. I see so many badass clothes online and in person and I feel so tempted to keep buying more. Each time I think "If I just buy this, I'll finally look cool and feel good about myself and people will finally be interested in me." Obviously that doesn't happen, and no matter what I wear, I still feel inferior and ugly. Has anybody else ever dealt with this?