Teen Gothic

I remember randomly stumbling across this blog in my teens and I remember reading it all of the time. The blog has been dead for years now but does anyone else remember this blog and reading it?

Yep, you read that right. I used to be terrified of the dark, when it's nighttime and all the lights are off. Whenever I slept without a night light I would get violent nightmares, or always felt someone's presence, even though there was noone there. Being fully alone in the dark terrified me. However, when I started listening to goth music, my fear started to dissapear. Why? Because of the lyrical content. For example, let's take the song "In Darkness You Will Feel Alright" by Horror Vacui. It's one of my favourites, and whenever I'm in the dark I just repeat to myself "in darkness i will feel alright", and that genuinely calms me down, I actually start feeling alright! That was the beginning. Then, as I discovered more goth songs, I found the Scary Bitches. Their song "Creepy Crawlies" definitely changed my perspective. Because I wasn't just afraid of the dark, I was specifically afraid of the terrifying eldrich horrors that could hide there. So, let's take a look at the lyrics: "Creepy crawlies crawling around my creepy house, dance around my bedroom when we are a sleepy house, ghouls and ghosts and the walking dead dance in circles around my bed". And, "In the living room we built a little bar where we drink fresh blood and strum guitars. The zombies give music and singing lessons, Frankenstein's monster gives tap dancing lessons". That song is what really "cured" my fear, because I'm a person with a very active and big imagination. My brain basically created a universe where I was a little helpless loner and in the dark there were creatures from horror stories who wanted to attack me. However, when I listened to this song, I felt like I belong to them, like I'm part of this creepy house, and I'm just having fun with all the monsters and ghouls. So my subconscious kinda shifted – instead of being a victim, I became a friend. I genuinely started getting less nightmares! My dreams about monsters no longer included me being lost, tortured, hunted, but instead I was having fun with the monsters. My fear and nightmares had a negative impact on my life, I was waking up feeling uncomfortable instead of refreshed, and I had trouble sleeping sometimes. But listening to goth music somehow affected my brain in such a positive manner! I'll be forever grateful for that! I don't know what you people are gonna think about this post, I've never in my life heard of someone having a similar experience. I'm just a kid with a strong imagination and a passion for music, so I wanted to share this experience with you! Have a good day everyone <3

I've been looking around on the internet to find more lifestyle articles and culture related things, but all I seem to get is fashion & music. While I am not complaining, I am pretty sure there is more out there. Where do you guys go to get your news? And what are you liking to read about?

One of my favorite ways to express my creativity within the subculture is by making these MVs using my favorite songs at the time and putting them to footage of me exploring the darker corners of the world. These places are often bat caves in different cities to delve into local scenes, concerts, and record stores, old cemeteries, alternative fashion boutiques and markets, macabre attractions, and places filled with dark history. Some are concert footage or conversations around my vinyl collection. Hopefully, you all will enjoy some of my shenanigans in this creepy little world, here are some of my latest adventure:

Gothic Salem/Boston

Gothic LA

Gothic Nashville

Gothic Mexico City

Cemetery Tourism

Live Music

Some Vinyl talk

This might be a shot in the dark! I’m autistic and ever since I was a little kid I’ve always been obsessively interested in dark things like death, skeletons, spiders, gothic horror etc. Now in my 20s instead of shaming my interests I’m embracing them and going fully goth. I love the style, the music, the themes, it just feels so me.

I just wanted to see if anyone else is in my boat. Even if you aren’t autistic necessarily, has this always felt like a deeper part of you?