Teen Gothic

When I was younger (18-20) I was very heavily into the scene. Clubs, the look, you name it. As i got older, I changed. Changed my hair, my clothes, my music.

I recently picked up writing and sketching again, and I’ve realized, I’m only masquerading as a normie.

There’s no one in the scene in my area to talk to, and I haven’t found anyone on socials. I feel isolated.

We have a lineup of great in-house DJs, and I’ll be spinning a set of modern goth and darkwave. Let’s dance in the darkness together.

Tenemos un lineup de increíbles DJs residentes, y estaré tocando un set de goth moderno y darkwave. Bailemos juntos en la oscuridad.

I recently went on the Wayback Machine, and I looked at the old Vampire Freaks site. I was active on it like…Sixteen ish years ago, but I remember it being the best. (I've since heard about the madness that came later.) As a young person who identified as "Alt/Goth", it was by far the easiest way to meet other people who also identified as some sort of that lifestyle. This was also back when "Goth" was kind of the accepted term for all of the different flairs (but not in all circles, of course…)

I even found my old profile. I also saw that some guy had posted some trash talk on my account page, two days after my last ever login…So I never saw it. So, naturally, I must hunt this guy down. Revenge! (Just kidding, if that wasn't obvious.)

Also, I lived in the epicenter of where it was created, so there were so, many, people. It exploded and was everywhere. Then, when I moved across the country, not expecting it to be there…Bam, there it was, and I met even more people! And I liked the vast majority of people I met. It was like, Myspace, but better.

Modern day Social Media just isn't the same. It's so full of…Scammers, and OnlyFans, and…Everything seems so fake. I miss those old days, when everything and everyone seemed genuine. As crazy as it sounds.

Anyway, I just wanted to rant about this, after my Wayback Machine trip. Didn't know where else to go. Thanks for reading!

Yes, one can argue that Goth is still around, but where I live, we haven't had anything goth in almost a decade now. Whatever goths we've had, have either "grown up" or moved abroad, if they even were goth and not just metalheads going through a goth phase, to begin with.

Because there's no scene, no foreign bands want to come here either, not even from neighbouring countries (She Past Away is a good example, they tour the Americas even though it'd be cheaper for them to come here), and no local bands want to play anything goth for the same reason. The few goths that are still around don't even talk to each other anymore for different reasons (for example, I had an acquaintance who randomly started talking shit about me, so naturally we stopped communicating).

I mean, maybe I'm too old for goth and should just move on, but it's been part of me for so long, I don't want to let it go, ya know?

It's depressing, really. 🙁

Man it’s been quite a few years since they took that site down. I met quite a handful of friends on there. Anyone know of any similar sites like vampire freaks?