Teen Gothic

I live in the Middle East. Such things are not accepted the way they are accepted elsewhere. Goths are considered weird people who cut veins, most people don't know it's a music based culture.

No one knows that I love gothic music and gothic image so much (maybe they do from the skull painting i draw lol) they don't care what i listen too but they don't like the aesthetic, i wear black most of the times and my mom don't like it she always telling me to add more colors but i just like the way i look with black clotes so basically it's more like a secret hobby. I myself am also too anxious to stand out.

Everyone knows I like metal but not gothic music. Many times there are gothic characters on TV for example and sometimes my family looks at it with a bad eye so I feel a bit hypocritical because on the one hand I am part of this culture but on the other hand no one knows and kinda slam the sub-culture that i like so much.

Do you have a faith?

Believe in God?

Satan?

Nature?

Maybe you’re all about The Self.

Or a Buddhist.

…Maybe you have your own belief that doesn’t fit into any predefined religion or faith.

Or perhaps you’re an atheist and view all spirituality as nonesense.

So, goths, what do you believe?

As the title says, i want more than anything to dress as trad goth, i’ve wanted to for a really long time. i’ve started shifting to the more alternative look but not exactly where i want to be. Im talking full extreme bat dragon looking goth. however after telling my partner this, he expressed that he didn’t really like the idea. Now i’m stuck between either wasting my life pretending to be someone im not, or stay with my boyfriend (whom i love very much, please don’t get me wrong i would do anything for this man.) Someone please help me or give me some advise!!!