Teen Gothic

I just discovered this subreddit recently and I like goth music a lot. However I notice that some teenagers think it's just a fashion trend. For me it's about the music. I think the music is amazing and it has helped me recently. I just got into it and I'm 21. People tell me I'm annoying because I say that goth is about the music. I'm not telling anyone that they cant be a goth. I'm just saying they should listen to the music because to me it sounds really good and is worth getting into.

I'm not sure if my opinion is unpopular or not. I just wish I knew more people who actually listened to the music. I'm glad to have found this subreddit. I like a variety of music but mainly goth.

I've always been tall and thin and I honestly hate my body. I have a precious little boy who I absolutely adore, he'll be 2 on the 25th. He's definitely a baby bat as well. He baby dances to Peter Murphy, Sisters of Mercy and The Mission. However, since his birth, I've struggled with it even more. I feel like a caricature of a person.

I used to dress goth and I still have the clothes and makeup but don't do it anymore, mostly due to time constraints. I see my friends, socially distanced of course and they still dress up. It's made me feel like I've lost a huge part of who I am.

It's like I want to dress up but can't find the motivation either. I'm honestly kind of depressed about it and it feels like a vicious cycle. I'm also tired of being told I'm lucky I'm thin. I've struggled to gain and maintain weight my entire life.

Anyway, maybe I'm being petty but it's how I feel. I just need someone to listen and thanks for making it this far. Could you guys maybe give me tips on how to slowly incorporate it back in or should I just go nuclear and dress up? Thanks. 🖤

Edit: I guess I'm also a little scared of scaring my son because he's never seen me like that. I know deep down he'll be fine because all he'll see is mommy but I just don't want to shock him I guess.

Recently I played to my mom some post-punk/goth albums. Sisters of Mercy "FALAA", Lebanon Hanover "Tomb for two", Joy Division "Unknown Pleasures" (not goth, especially this album, but still related), The Cure "Faith" (IMO not a goth record, but too many people consider it goth), The Chameleons "Script of the bridge" (same), Bauhaus "Burning from the inside". And she loved some of it! She really loved SoM and The Chameleons. She loved Lebanon Hanover in general, though it was a bit repetitive for her. She really loved some songs of Bauhaus, but disliked others. She wasn't impressed with JD, and she kind of liked "Faith", but stated that it's too depressed record. And she likes sad music, it calms her, so… probably it's really depressing haha. Also she's familiar with Dead can dance and Lacrimosa, before many years; probably even before I started to listen to JD and Siouxsie & the Banshees.

I'm planning to play her "17 seconds" by The Cure, the first album of Clan of Xymox, "Floodland" by SoM, the second JD's album, and Alien Sex Fiend's "maximum security". Probably she'll like part of it.

I'm glad I succeeded to enrich my mom's musical tastes. Love her