Teen Gothic

i know the contour is a bit out of place on one side but unfortunately my pigment refused to stick. first real time doing something like this so lots of firsts and learning to be done! (last pic is before)

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"Because I feel it all fading and paling and I'm begging to drag you down with me, to kick the last nail in"

I am sixty-two years old now. Forty years ago, tonight, I would be dancing all night long in a goth club, no doubt about it. I grew up in an uneasy, violent home. I was the opposite of that. As a result, I felt like a spectator to life, I suppose. Always on the outside, looking-in at people who were alive in the normal sense.

"Take me out tonight Because I want to see people

And I want to see life Driving in your car Oh, please don't drop me home

Because it's not my home, it's their home And I'm welcome no more"

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How I started wearing a huge black jacket with a face hiding behind a shield of blue-black hair I can't really say. Somehow, I wound up in a goth club, astonished that I had people too.

"We're flying high

We're watching the world pass us by

Never want to come down

Never want to put my feet back down on the ground

I'm taking a ride with my best friend

I hope he never lets me down again

Promises me I'm as safe as houses"

Forty years ago tonight, I would be dancing all night long in a goth club, no doubt about it.

When I was in puberty, I always dreamed of going out and meeting people with this style in my country. As I got older and was close to entering the scene, I received warnings about the level of toxicity among groups of friends. I thought they were just exaggerations. But the truth is that I have come to realize it. Pure gossip and fighting. Toxicity over the question of whether you are a "real goth" or not and even racism. There are groups of people in their 40's and 50's and I'm also with groups of 17-20 year olds (as you know sometimes it doesn't end well).