Teen Gothic

Hey, I don't know why but I felt like I should post this here. I'm trying really hard not to lose my mind. I'm planning to leave my boyfriend. I've been seeing him for almost a year and things aren't going so well. He's turned abusive. I'm stuck in a town 2 hours away from my hometown with no way to get back.

I'm disabled and can no longer drive. He's taking advantage of that. He treats me like a paycheck and meal ticket. I've broken up with him several times but he refuses to accept it. He's even said that I don't know what is best for me. He said that breaking up isn't what I really want and has said that he doesn't care what I want, I'm not allowed to leave him.

I'm depressed and I just want to go home. I have somewhere to stay in my hometown but no way to get there. I've called the domestic violence shelter here and they will not help me because I'm wanting to leave the county. I just don't know what to do anymore. I never consented to moving here. We used to come down on the weekends to visit friends. In February, he waited until we got here to tell me that we weren't going back.

He refuses to accept reality. He thinks I'm going to marry him and everything will be fine. I don't want to marry him. In fact, I just want to be single from now on. The only thing that keeps keeps me sane is dressing up and listening to Bauhaus and Peter Murphy. I also like Killing Joke, Sisters of Mercy and The Mission UK among others. I just want to talk to you, my people. I'm not asking for money, I just need support. Thank you for reading.